Wednesday, February 28, 2007
ha...he can go out have fun...he is happy...wat about me?so sad of it..he dun care for me any more..he got no feeling toward me anymore..love him so mach yet wat i have get back?hurt...:_(...everyday think of him...cry for him...cant even sleep well because of him...its hurt me so badly...lots of my friens said dun because of him make urself until like tat..not worth it...i so sad wat bout him?is he sad until like tat?they said me so pretty still can found another good guy de...but i keep tellin them i dun wan any others guy i only wan him...he mean so mach to me...yet in the end he was the wan happy...not me...everyday keep thinkin tat he will come back to me..but now..:_(...everyday cry out loud...he dun even know...it so hurt!!but i still wish he could come back to me...
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
yesterday stay at home the hold day no mood to go out...3+ to 4 then sleep...hai...everyday think of him..maybe i will stop msging him le...coz i find out tat i really very fan...keep msging him...make him more angry only...hai...he wan a long break...he break finnish also wont come back to me...:_(...wat for he say tat...after the long break he will found another better gal...i really hope tat he will come back to me...:_(...today maybe not goin out ba...my 3 teo blue black haven ok yet...also no mood to go out...hai...my world was all sadness...hai...
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
miss him very very mach!!everyday keep thinkin of him...so sad..he dun even reply me at all...:_(...cry everyday for him...he dun even know how hurt am i how sad am i...its very very pain...i nv had this feelin toward anybody be4...y he so ren xin?he dun love me any more le ma?this few day listen to a songs tat i like si xin bu gai...in chinese version...the song very meaning full...hai...miss him lots lots...i willing to do anythings to get him back to my life...love him so mach...:_(...wish he could come back to me...
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Sunday, February 25, 2007
cant sleep at all...hai...still thinkin of him...so sad tat he dun even care for me any more...:_(...this afternoon almost fell but i hit until a table...my 3th toe blue black le...very very pain...tat make me think of him..coz everytime got blue black he will wan to help me rub...so sad he not by my side any more :_(...miss him so mach...every time think of him my tears fell...i hope he will come back to me...i dun wan any others guys..i only wan him only...not even my other exs..even zaki ask me for patch...but i dun love him any more...i rejected him...last time i use to love him very mach...but now i dun...all my heart is wif ah boon now...i truely love him lots lots...even my exs can c it...wat can i do to have him back in my life?he really mean so mach to me...:_(...
Sunday, February 25, 2007
yesterday night cant sleep well...keep thinking of him n cry hole night...hai...around 3 or 4 + then fell asleep...got a dream tat i n him back together...wish tat was true...hai...
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Saturday, February 24, 2007
today went out wif xueli n her friens...hai...dunno y this fews days keep buying things...now goin to no money soon le...went to watch epic movies...hai...keep thinking of him...dunno wat to do..miss him so much!!in bus on the way home my frien thought i angry at her..but not is tat i was thinking of him..miss him very very mach!!cant stop think of him...hai...msg him he ask me not to msg him any more...hai...he dunno how i feel...:_(...
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Friday, February 23, 2007
today wen hui ask me out...actually no mood to go...but she keep wan me to go...wan make me not to think so mach...then i got dun wan make her feel bad so i go lor...went to bugis to shop...bought a boots n 2 clothers...she bought some clothers n a boots too...but her grandma dun like the boots then got to sell it away...too bad...thought can wear together go out...hai...go out also no use..still will think of him sometimes...Y everytime i love some one very deeply then some one dun love me?then i dun love some one le tat some one will come back to me wif a regret of hurtin me?wei she me xiang ai de ren bu ne zai yi qi?
Friday, February 23, 2007
hai..cant sleep at all...dun feel tired at all...keep thinkin of him..hai...wat can i do to stop thinkin of him?cry for him almost hole day le...now 4.30 AM le...today maybe not goin any where ba...no mood to go any where...hai...think also no mood to eat ba...today stay at home sleep hole day ba...hai...so sad...
Friday, February 23, 2007
Thursday, February 22, 2007
:_(...i dun wish to leave him...y he alway think we together will not happy?y cant he think porsitively?we not together make me more unhappy lo..it hard to forget everythings lo...5 month+ relationship lei...i nv had this long relationship be4 lor...he had replaced my first ex lor...now he leave me...dunno wat i can do next le...everyday keep thinkin of him...cant eat properly...cant really sleep properly...everyday headache...very very pain lor...dunno how am i goin to work next month?give all the kids black face...just now my litter cousin wan play wif me also no mood to play wif her...morning til afternoon nv eat no mood to eat...frien wan ask me out no mood to go...even dinner they order 3 big plates of noodle n rice...eat alitter bit dun wan eat le...then my uncle n another uncle try to finnish those foods...cant finnish they take away some food go home give his wife eat n my bro...hoping to die earier so every pain i had will go away...
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Love really really do hurt!..y can he think of ppl feelin first?he dun even know how ppl feel...he only know he is sad...i dun think he is sad lor..he wont wan to make me happy at all..he already dun love me le...tat y he dun wan to patch back wif me..it hurt me so mach tat he dun even wan to trust me...watever i say he wont even care...y cant he give another try?he alway think tat we together will not happy...dun wanna meet me dun wanna talk to me on phone...tat mean he feelin toward me already not there anymore le...wat for so stupid of me use so many time n everything on him?maybe if it wendy he will wan to patch back no matter how many time she lies he will til turst her...tat wat turst love r!hate guys forever!
Thursday, February 22, 2007
this fews day went out to bai nian...first day new year went to my grandpa house...my father side de...nv collect hong pao...all hong pao my mum took it...she say go home then give us...but at home she only give us $10 only...hai...she still think we r kids cannot take so mach money...2nd day of new year went to my ah ma house...my mother side de...almost all the hong pao i collect...but 2 or 3 my mum collect...after tat gamber wif the small kids n some adult...after tat all small went out...then some adult add in...win some money...then i n my 2 little cousin went to park way...almost all the shop closes..then we wanted to go suntec walk...be4 we go we went to eat kfc first...after we finnish our food...the sky become dark...so we nv go suntec le...we went back to my ah ma shop...then we play wif bomb back...we wanted to scare other ppl...so funny...went to 2nd floor throw down the bomb back at the ppl who usin phone there...then we run away...lol...after tat we went home...at home my mum wanted me to give her all the hong pao...but i nv give...she cant find it also...then she said dun take any money from her any more...so i dun care her...3th day new year...my friens came to my house bai nian...then we went to another frien house at hou kang...we cant find his blk...we from 400+ walk to 500+...we ask around some ppl say left some ppl say right...hai...walk until leg pain...at last we goin to found his blk...but he came down to find us...coz we cannot c where his blk..lol...just infront only we still ask him come down find us...then we go up his house bai nian le then we went to watch movies...Epic movie de...but reach then dun have ticket le...then we watch ghost rider...hai...watch 2nd time le..oh forget to return my frien money for the ticket...lol..nvm..maybe next time got meet them then return him..then we went home le...this fews day not really happy...miss him so mach...no msg no nth...hai...
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Sunday, February 18, 2007
hai...he dun wan me anymore le...he dun love me anymore le...he think tat break up will be happy...but i was so sad of it...he think together not happy...he was wrong lor...if he tell me everythings dun make me feel lonely then we will be happy...tat wat i wan from him only...he keep dun wanna talk to me on phone seldom meet each other...every time say meet le also nth to do no place to go...talk on phone nth to say...it make me feel tat he tryin to leave me farther n farther le...he dun even know how will i feel...i do understand tat he is tired...but he wan to watch his tv then talking to me..his tv more important then me...every time wan a break up to end everythings...y cant we change somethings to make it work?he dun even wan to change for me...keep sayin tat wat we r..we cant change...i wanted to give him time to change but he dun wan...wat can i do now?hai...hope he will come back to me...but he wont...my life were so dam bad...bad in relationship...bad in familys...bad in friens....hope i could end my life soon...
Sunday, February 18, 2007
just break up wif him...ha...so stupid of me to love someone tat dun really love me...tat dun really trust me...wendy is right..he dun even know how to charish anythings...no wonder she only puppy love him...tats wat she told me...haha...y am i so stupid to give in too much love to somebody who dun wanna change n trust me...hate this worlds so mach!dun wish to live in this lonely sad n hurt world!it the end now...nth can change anythings...
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Saturday, February 17, 2007
hai...now tryin to forget him...this relationship tought me not to fell in deep love wif somebody who dun really trust me...no trust relationship no love...from now me dun wan to have any relationship anymore...it hurt me so mach after all...hai...hate to be hurt hate to be lonely...but my life is all lonelyness...hai...
Saturday, February 17, 2007
today went back to sch wif my friens to collect my result...after tat we went to find our teachers who tought us be4...we seat down n talk to the teacher...after tat we went to 24 hours for a drinks n some desert...one of my frien very good treat me n my frien drink ice lemon tea...hehe..then me treat my frien eat su mai...after tat the rest o my frien went home first then me n geraldine went to pasir ris park for some fresh air...the sea very nice..it blue n grey...a deep blue sea...hehe..after tat we came to aranda country club to use com...hehe...nth mach le...hehe...:)...
Saturday, February 17, 2007
yesterday dear pei me go collect my report...then after tat we go watch movie...ghost rider...then we went back to pasir ris to have our dinner...thought tat he wont wanna meet me yesterday...
this few days i feel tat he is getting farther n farther...now aday seldom talk on phone...seldom meet le...he dun really trust me...even we r still together i still feel tat i am lonely...to him he think tat friens is important...but me think tat he is important then my friens...hai...i alway feel tat he is tryin to leave me...maybe i am thinkin too mach..or maybe it was true...hai...:'(...hope tat i n him will last long long....
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Thursday, February 15, 2007
yesterday go out wif dear...we go eat hokkien mee...but dunno y not so nice le...then dear buy me clothes for valentine...then we take pic...
yesterday night cant sleep well...keep thinkin of somethings...hai...from 1+ cry til 3+ ba...hai...now no mood to find job...dun feel like goin any where...but got to go collect my report...hai...go down alone...nobody wan pei me...nvm...i am alway alone...
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
this morning wen hui msg me wake me up...she wanted to come my house to register her sch...after she finnish she treat me eat sue mai under my blk..then after tat we came up my house again she wan try my guitar...after tat she went home...coz she got piano lesson in the evening...then me put songs in my mp3...later goin out...hehe...
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
today went for check up at sata a clinic...got blood test...not pain wan...but after take out then abit pain...then got X-Ray then height n weight n BIM...then go c doctor...after tat go home then thursday goin down to collect my report...at the same day i start work at the kindergarten...8:00 got to reach work place...then 3 got to reach the clinic...tmr valentine meetin my dear...dunno go where eat...then go home le...coz next day me got work...hai...if my work start on friday more good...then can overnight...hai too bad...
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
yesterday meet my dear at suntec...walk so long cannot find my new year clothes...we walk at suntec to bugis...then i saw my ex at bugis wif his frien...nv go say hi...just walk pass him..then we went tempines at then this fashion found a clothes cost $20...then at a shop dunno wat name...found a skirt..cost $30+...after tat went to my dear house overnight...hehe...so happy can sleep wif dear..hehe..today dear work...tmr me goin for check up...hope me got no problem ba...hehe..
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Sunday, February 11, 2007
today went out wif my friens...only got one guy..my frien bf...we go parkway walk walk...then my frien bf my clothes...at ice lemon tea saw a clothes me wanted to buy...then my frien say go tm c got not lor...then we walk awhile more then go tm walk walk..then we take newprint...after taking newprint we went tempines mart meet my other friens bf then go eat...we gals eat kfc...the other guys go eat food court...after tat we all sent the birthday gal go home first then i go take bus myself...the others go under blk sit...
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Saturday, February 10, 2007
just got a bad bad dreams...hai...hoping tat dreams wont come true...i dreams tat my dear went out wif his frien then they come n meet me...but he keep walkin wif his frien nv come pei me...then i was very sad...then i wake up...then i went back sleep again...then the dreams continue i become in the sch..he sent me a msg say somethings like i dunno how he feel every time....... then i cant reply his msg...then i try to call him..but dunno y cant dail his no properly...very hard to dail...then finaily can dail thought...he picked up...then he said he found another gal he like...then i was crying...then i say dun lies...then i wake up le...hai...then i cant sleep any more le...keep thinkin of the dreams...my head very pain...hope tat dream wont come true...
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Friday, February 9, 2007
today so bored at home...finally brought a newspaper every time wan to buy dun have le...lucky i got the newspaper if not other ppl will got it before me...it the last one...hehe...not mach job to find today...later goin to get my last time jobs pay...now still waitin for calls...hai...today my dear work tmr then he off...then can meet him...still need to wait...everythings need to wait...hai...hope tmr meet him wont have anythings make us unhappy ba...nth mach le...
Friday, February 09, 2007
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
yesterday went for a look at how those teacher teach the kindergarten n how to look after those kids...only 3 hours work there...dunno they will hire me not...now waitin for their calls...now still lookin for other job...if the kindergarten wan me then i will work for 2 jobs... this fews day dunno y dear dun wanna talk on phone wif me at night...hai...this fews day he keep makein me feel sad n cry...i can understand tat y dun he trust me...but he dun have to scold vulgarities at me...i hate ppl to scold vulgarities...hai...this few day he like become so cold toward me le...dunno wat he thinkin...
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Monday, February 5, 2007
today went for interview at my church...tmr go for a try as a asst teacher...dunno wat to do...hope i will like it n can work there for long long time ba...but its only 3 hours work n pay is too low...maybe find another job for afternoon shift ba...today dear dear go work cannot alway sms me...so bored...miss him lots lots...dunno when can meet him too...hai...
this comin sat hope dear dear can pei me go celebrate my frien birthday...dunno where they goin also n dunno who were goin...
Monday, February 05, 2007
Sunday, February 4, 2007
so happy yesterday overnight at dear dear house...hehe.. tmr got to go interview at my church at 1 p.m...hope tat i will get the job...hehe...nth much le...hehe...
Sunday, February 04, 2007
me back...hehe...so happy he give me one last chance...hehe...this time i wont lie to him wont go out wif others guys n wont make him angry any more...i will charish him lots lots...love him deeper then the sea cant tell how deep it is...love him til the stars dun shine...hope he will charish me too...hehe...
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Friday, February 2, 2007
hai...just break up wif ah boon...he hate me le...he dun trust me le...hai...who ask me lie to him so mach...hai...i still love him lots lots...but its too late le...he dun love me le...i think...hope he will found another better gal tat wont lie to him...hai...:'(...no work le...today dun need to go down work le...now need to find new job le...hai...no mood to find...maybe wait til i better le then go find new job...wat a lonely world...hai...
Friday, February 02, 2007
