Saturday, May 31, 2008
just wake up not long...lol...actully is 8+ like tat wake up le..ytd night sleep very late...doin my blogshop...coz today no work ma...so can do til late late..later goin out for lurch n shopping wif my frien...hehe..so long nv go out le...feel so bored...so today go out lo...if not nth to do...all my friens so busy...all nv contact me out le..so boring...wen hui was sick...n she got exam coming soon...so cant go out wif her le...wait til her exam finnish ba...
then xueli they all got work ba...they say they holiday wan to go zoo...ask me along...i dunno tat time if i got off or not...hope got off ba..hehe..
so sian...just now dunno y just this fews day very angry wif him...coz of wat he said..y must he keep saying my ex?i treat who good or bad i dunno meh?ya i did treat him badly now...coz wat he to me is making me feel tat he just trying on me...wth!!he think he is who sia?play le dun like le leave...wat is this?tat y i hate him lots!!
i dunno y all my relationship so bad?hai..hate it lo...hate guys lots!!
dunno y everytime i say dun wan to talk to him n dun wan to contact him any more but end up keep msg him or call him...last night i dream of him...wake up i think of him...aaaahhhhhhhhhh!!going crazy le!!becoz of him!!i hate him but i still love him lots!wat is this?!wan to die!!aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!hate my life!!!hate being myself!!!!if earlier i dun go have any bf b4 i wont become like this!!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
i hope i wont be in this world for long!!fucking world!!hate it hate it!!
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
so dame unlucky today!!
today n ytd got a coustomer reject the cards...stupid de lo...so little small things also reject..next time do better back to them can le ma...stupid osim...think they very big like tat...the stupid boss...make me kana say by them...stupid de lo...who will c is sia?ppl take the card keep le also dun c so mach de lo...like their osim very big like tat...so wat it is big?also so seldom c ppl buy their things..so ex...some more dunno do le got wat use?i also got their leg massage de things...also no use wan...
then the other job tat time i do de...today they then check...stupid wan...tat time i also very tired ma...then dunno maybe c things not clear then nv do nicely...but they also nv c clearly so lucky lo...then his mum say me comfirm sleeping so nv do nicely...aiya dun care la...
then today angie say me also...coz i do wrong her photo...sant wrongly to ah john...then they also do wrong back...sian...verytime do wrong so many things...dunno wat to do...
then today i think i make him angry ba...hai...nvm...i also angry wif him...i dunno y i just dun like ppl goin to his house over night...like his gf like tat...coz i last time use to over night at his house from friday to sun...thinking if it was his frien tat he wan to jio...i really very sad of it lo...he really got no feeling toward me le...i dun believe it lo...just for few days of few weeks he got no more feeling toward me?he playing my feeling isit?dun love me le still dun want to tell me earlier....make me like so dum...he just a fucking basterd lo..make my break so deeply...i put in all my heart to love him lo...but he did this to me...:_(...really very sad...
feel like dieing sia..just now at road side i was thinking if i could run out in to the car then good lo...or the car come very fast n lost contro n come onto me...haha...me really stupid...but think back if i really run out the car kana me they comfirm will kana de...then just now at up stard was thinking if i could jump down from tat will it be better?but if i jump down nv die then wat will happen to me?become no leg?no hand?sign...if from very very high jump down comfirm will die ba...haha...my home not really high...nvm...think of cuting hand?if nv die comfirm pain de...i scare of pian...n very er xin...think le also feel er xin...eeeeee...maybe think of other way ba..
just now sms wif wen hui...said tat her coming holiday go sit the singapore flyer...which i wanted to sit very long le...hai...he promised me to go n sit tat together de...end up break up...wth!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!
feel like shuting out loud!!!
Friday, May 30, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
just finnish doin my new blog shop...hehe...haven really done yet...coz dunno wat to add on...so need to do some touch out...i just found out y i keep cant plaste in my template...coz i need to click on somethings...lol...so stupid...do so many days le still cannot til now...wa liao...waste my time sia...nvm...now know le...coz long long time v touch this thingsa le...so abit forget...keep asking around about it..but no body know...so stupid sia...haha..
ok la...got to go bath n sleep le...if not tmr go work tired n fell asleep at work again...so funny...
bye! good night!~
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
just dunno y suddenly i was so angry wif him...he just take it as nth happen...wth!!i am dame angry lo...treat me like wat?fucking hell men!i really goin crazy!if he dun really love me then dun ever be so nice to me!if he wan to be cold toward me i dun give a dam...coz i already giving up on him!!i dun wan to be a stupid gal kana play by my feeling...he wan others gals go a head!dun come back n find me!he just dunno wat is love!he still a small kids!thinks everythings very easily...i very tired of it!
not in the mood now!!becoz of him!!
i hate the way he treating me now lo...really dunno wat he thinking lo...
hai...
today at work abit busy...but sometime got nth to do...then today off work late..coz doin typing de things...the stupid customer complain tat the card is in the wrong front...they wan the new wan then i do the old wan for them...how will i know?coz i dun even know they got new n old wan...tat gal who was not working there le nv give me the new front tat y i dunno lo...then b4 off work i was doin the new front...very hard..i dunno how to do...then ask the gal beside me to help me c...coz i dunno how ma...first time do new folder ma...then copy the old wan lo...today morning go work so many ppl in the bus...i was abit late...coz everytime i take the bus confirm sit inside de but today sit outside...coz i reach mrt around 7+...then faster go buy food...then go to the bus interchange the bus come le...lucky nv late...but too bad cannot c someone...got la got c...but tat he nv come up...coz too full le...so he wait for another bus...then today off work saw him on bus..haha...but i nv go n sit wif him...i just dun really like to sit wif guys tat i dunno well de...hehe...c if tmr can c him not lo...hehe...last week seldom c him coz i late...i think he got the bus earlier ba...tat y lo...dunno y everytime on bus haven really his stop i cannot sleep will wait til reach his stop then c got c him or not then can sleep de...hehe..me very funny ba...hehe...just dunno y everytime i on the bus i saw him like keep looking at me like tat...maybe is i c wrong ba...but really sometime i c him he go look at me...lol...i think too mach le...coz i am goin crazy!!
ok end here le...got to go bath n watch tv...then go sleep le...tmr is a new day for me...hope tmr will be better ba...
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
i miss all my friens...i miss those days where we go out to...feel like goin out wif them again....sign...
nth to do at his house...he just keep playing n talking to his friens...make me feel very lonely...somemore talk to gals somemore...hai..nvm...his not my bf any more...forget it..
Monday, May 26, 2008
SIAN!
nth to do...very very de sian...tmr start work le..sian...everyday very sian...
today just broke up wif tat guy i dun really like...haha...
i crazy lei...
nth to do...
bye!
Monday, May 26, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
so bored...stay at home all the way...nth to do...watch show...just finnish it all...so many but i finnish it all the whole day today...actaully later goin to meet him de...coz i dun feel like goin out so i tell him i cannot go out...i also dun feel like meeting him...dunno meet him do wat...tmr dunno wat to do...maybe stay at home ba...sleep til dunno wat time...
today me nv go lesson...coz up line nv call me...so i think she forget le ba...maybe next sat i call her lo...i also dunno..i become very lazy le...very where also dun wanna go..just wanna stay at home..think of lots of things...no mood to do anythings else...so just watch show lo...sometime i really dunno y i will think of him...n start wanted to msg him or call him...but i call him i dunno wat to say...then msn him..he was like trying to hind from me ba...dunno...
today eat very little...past few days also...just got no mood to eat...one i think of him i become more no mood...just miss him lots lots...he aready dun love me le...y am i still loveing n missing him so mach??hao xin ku ar...i really dunno how...n dunno wat to do le...so stress...those few days at work also no mood to eat...then every time morning buy food to work then morning nv finnish the breakfast...so keep it til lurch to eat lo...
ytd at work got customer came to complain about the car decal...then his mum came n ask me y like tat?so small?then i say dunno...they was like so shock...i down there feel nth...then they open our file n c then say ok lei...no wrong...then his mum say wa i like not scare like tat...then ah hwee say tat i dunno anything ma tat y i not scare...then i was like scare of wat?only wrong size only ma...can change de ma...i behind already heard wat they saying le...but i just feel nth...coz i was thinking of somethings else too ma...tat y...hai...
monday i dunno wat to eat...maybe buy food from ws then go work eat for lurch lo...i also no mood to go out eat...dunno y suddenly become like dun like to go out le...sian...
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
I AM GOING CRAZY!!!
STUPID!!
AHHH!!!
DUMMY!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
:_(_ _ _
I AM A CRY BADY!
JUST DUNNO Y KEEP CRYING N CRYING!
NO LIFE!!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
love do really hurt!ones u fell in love u cant get it off...unless u dun really love tat person...i know i am very stupid...every single relatetionship i take it in to my heart deeply...coz i thought it will be my ture love...but ended up wif hurt...
ytd i went out wif a guy...i know him by a friend i hated...wendy hung..her ex bf intro him to us...i really dun remember it..but ytd we went out together i recalled...n i ask him which sch he from ?last time..he said loyang...i was like so shock...coz i knew i c him be4...but i cant really remember...he also shock too...coz he nv know this world really small...tat we can knew each other like this...he say i really change alot..last time i dun really look pretty...now i change so mach...i can c he really dun really like me...but we go steady wifout love...i know he dun really like me...n i also dun really like him too...today i asked him y do he like me?he said coz we share the same interest tat y he like me...then he also say i change alot...i know he will say like this...coz he dun really like me...he just a playboy...a 20+ de playboy...nvm just let him play lo...i also dun care le...saw his hp de pic is a gal tat nv wear clothes..but he said tat wan is a pole dancer...he say his frien pei yang pole dancer de...then he wan to pei yang boxer...watever la...i also dun care...coz i also dun really like him...
ytd went to china town...heard some songs tat we like...ok la...it nice lo...walk every where also the same song...i think is radio lo...lol...then sit beside a cds shop eat supper...but i dunno y i just eat abit n waste all the food le...no mood to eat...think of someone else...coz the cds shop played a song...make me feel sad...he also say the song is nice..then asked the ppl wat the cds?then went home le..at mrt he dun have money to take mrt...then i borrow him $10...to top up his card...can c he like to any how use money...then dun have money wif him de...then eat supper also i pay abit...becoz of tat make me think of something..his mum said to me b4 i hand said tat my bf like to waste money...then i was like thinking if he is my last one?coz i dun really like him at all...
how did i accept him?coz ytd the floor is wet...then i almost slip...then he hold me...then walk til dunno where he start to hold my hand...i nv reject him..coz i dunno if i reject him wat will happen??today he wanted to meet me de...but i told him tat i am sick n tired...so wanted to go home rest...then he said ok...but just now he msg me ask me if i wan to meet him downstair?coz he stay near me only..i thought he was a good guy but how i c him now he was not...
maybe all guys r bad ba...
i really every tired!
tired or relationship!
tired of living!
this world really suck!
i hate this world!
i hate guys!
i hate myself!
i hate love!
i hate everything!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
i really dunno wat to do in my life..today in bus on my way home i think alot...of my pass...i c my pass really meaningless...next time my life will it be better?i dunno..
feel like goin to die after all...my life really hao xin ku...no body love!like to lie...dunno y...just really dunno y...every time when i lie i really dunno wat i am doin n wat am i saying...y life so xin ku?y must i be in this world?y am i having so mach hurt n pian?isit u?god?making my life til so bad?y?
all my relationship so meaningless...i do hate to be lonely...coz all the time there is someone beside me...now no more ppl beside me le...i got to do everythings myself...i really dunno wat to do in my life..
god pls god!help me! pls!
my world were so emtry...no friens no bf...family love?i dun think so ba...they only care about them self..hai...really hate myself lots!
Thursday, May 22, 2008
fucking angry wif him...now then i know all the while is only i love him...he dun every love me...wtf!!if like this y lie to me?all bull shit!!i hate him lots now!!n i hate those ppl who only think tat i am so easy to bluff!!!I HATE THEM VERY MACH!!I DIE ALSO WONT FORGIVE THEM!!
FEELING SO LONELY!!
WANNA DIE!!
LIFE REALLY SUCK!!
I HATE THIS WORLD!
I HATE MYSELF!!!
I HATE EVERYTHING!!
:'(
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
fuck up day!!early moring dream tat he wanna leave me...keep siting far away from me on the bus...wake up i n said he n then we break up...y will i dream of tat?coz wat he said me me the day b4 make me dream of it...he said the feeling he had toward me aready slowly no more le...wat is this??no wonden he keep doin things tat i dun like...n dun wanna tell me anythings...keep hinding things from me...end up i asked for break n he nv even say anythings n wan me to treat he as b4...wat is this?how can i?if it will end like this y still want to stead in the first place??
hai...wanna die!!suck men!!i hate it!!:'(
dun wish to go any where!!wanna stay at home...hope tmr can dun need to go work!!wanna rest...feeling pianfully in my heart!!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Friday, May 9, 2008
so sian...work work work...tmr go lesson at up line house...then after tat maybe go eat dinner at my church or go meet him lo...dunno lei...coz i dun feel like goin to my church lei...so sian...now feel abit tired le...
today at work do art work...do til fell asleep...sign...coz very tired n keep sitting there n look at the com for so long time...of coz will fell asleep lo..
he some more wan me to learn...how to learn sia??told him b4 i study will fell asleep de lo...coz keep looking at ppl do comfirm will fell asleep de ma...if do facial the things i wont fell asleep...coz i must move around de ma...then do art work dun need to move around de...sit down there look at then com only...
today go ppl brithday...she brought a cake for everybody...she cut the cake so big...then i eat til left abit nv finnish...coz very full le...then feel like vomitting if i continues eat...then went to toilet dunno y feel like vomitting n goin to the toilet...like i have some kind of illness like tat...will suddenly feel cold...but come out cold sweat...dunno y lei...tat time i kana the wen zi bit then got sick...also feel like tat...like goin to die like tat...then like drink water also dun feel well...
ok le..noow feel abit sick le..got to go sleep now le scare tmr cannot wake up...sian...
Friday, May 09, 2008
so sian life so boring!!
today go work very busy...got art work to do...dunno dunno how many art work lo...do until wan to sleep lo...then today the boss n his mum querrel again...stupid de lo...everyday querrel querrel...his mum wan me do the very ungent de work ytd first...then the boss come n say do the other one first lei...then his mum say this one more ungent do this one first ma...one by one ma...then................ they keep saying n saying make me so fan...everyday comfirm got ppl querrel de lo...hear de ppl also fan...i sit down there whole day tat y lo...
dunno when they puting one more com n do bigger de place for the gal who keep complaining so mach de...coz i was there ma...tat y must have 3 com...coz i one person need 2 com to do my work ma...then tat gal only do her mailing n photo at a com...tat y lo...next time comfirm more ma fan de lo...coz if got one more com need email ma...then need one more email add..later the customer dunno where to sent then anyhow sent then will more busy de lo...if the mail 2 way go then i will need to use the 3 com to print out mail lo...so ma fan...aiyo..
today so busy til tea break also dunno...just now tea break i thought is off work le...coz ewvery time got 2 time de ma...first de go back around 5.15...2nd de go home around 5.30...i go back around 5.30 de ma...tat y lo...lol...then the gal beside tell me tea break lei...then i say huh??i thought goin home time...lol...then the guy behind say y?she bully me ar?lol...then tat gal say c who is the master lo...lol...his mum lo...lol...coz his mum teach me do every things de ma...today i abit blur blur de...everything also forget...
so sian haven eat dinner...mum just cook finnish...now go eat n watch tv then go bath then sleep le...very tired...good night!
Friday, May 09, 2008
Sunday, May 4, 2008
ytd called geraldine n sam...coz i was bored...so i asked geraldine to come over my house...then she came n use the com...then when she was using com i went to clean my ham ham...coz long time nv clean n give themnice nice de place to live le...was so smelly...then i asked geraldine to help me to bath them...coz they run very fast..then i scare they will run away...then i went to clean the cage...after cleaning n puting back ham ham...geraldine went back n play wif my com...
i was still doin cleaning...then sam called wanted to come over my house...then ok lo he wan to come, come lo...i also anything wan...he came le he look at geraldine play com...i still cleaning my house...after cleaning i went to bath...ytd really very hot..then bath out le..then went to down town wif them...
went to downtown walk walk n buy things...sam buying food for his family..geraldine just follow lo...then i went there to buy sushi n drinks...coz ytd dunno y so dry...keep buying water to drink...then come back forget tat i have no key...then called my mum ask where r they then went back to down town n take key n go back...they was there eating dinner wif my grandma n pa...wif my uncle n aunts...my uncle treat them eat ma..i was like wa...nv ask me go...then nvm lo...i just go home eat bisket lo..then wait for my up line to call me back...coz i wanted to buy something from her ma...my mum lo...keep asking my where the wash face wan??keep wan me to faster go buy...i really got no time to go down ma...somemore so fast...then sat only open til 5...then i go down aready wat time le...tat time i wwent down they aready close le lo...
then my up line called me...i thought she wan me to go down her house at tat time...coz i was tired le...wanted to ask if tmr then i go down can??but i nv ask then she say she at tempines now she bring down the thing to my house ok??then i say ok...lol...if not got to go down her house to take...then she hang up le...then later dunno how long then she called...ask me to go down 5 min later...then i said ok...then i was watching tv ma...then drink water half way...the show go in to intro then i suddenly jump up...n ask 5 min reach le ma??then i quickly take my money n run down...i thought they was down there waiting le...then i walk to the car there look in...lol...not them...then one car coming in...then i know it them...lol..i thought i was late...lucky not...if not very bad...then pass her the money n she pass me the things...30+ only...lol...then went back home...very tired...then drink water n water tv...after tv went to bath n sleep...so tired...then this morning wen zi bit me...stupid de lo...haven kill it...if today i find it i will kill it...take my blood so many time le...can die le...
today wait for lao gong to come out...dunno wat time he coming out...then goin to meet him later...dunno him la...say wat he goin back at around 9+...then scare no mach time...wat shit de...like dun wan to meet me like tat...if he dun wan to meet then dun meet lo...tat wat he wan de ma...very time say miss me lots dunno is true or not lo...hai...every time blog also say about him...then dream about him also bad dream...hai...dunno la...
Sunday, May 04, 2008
this few days seldom use com le...coz at work use com whole day then come back cannot use le...if not my eye cannot take it....everyday after work go ws awhile then go home le..some time got go down town walk walk n eat dinner...there open le...got movie le...wanted to got watch wif him...but he cant come out...sian...becoz of the stupid guy run away then he got to go n find tat stupid guy...then make us cant meet up...last sat n sun stay at his house nv go out..coz he wanted to stay at home...stupid de lo...he like to stay at home then every time bluff me say he promise his mum that he stay at home...end up his mum ask me if we r goin out or not...hai...y he got to be like this??
today he cannot come out....go find tat stupid guy last night...i think not find is look after the gate...dam ass de lo..tat stupid guy comfirm out of this country le lo...if he still in this country then y so long still dun have his news??
today maybe i will stay at home do my things ba...his mum give me some things to do...ask me not to go out...if not he will worry about me...worry i go out got ppl will woo me...stupid de lo...if will then i wont be wif him til now de lo...
last night cant sleep well...coz gotr the stupid wen zi in my room...got 7 bit by it....trying to kill it last night but haven kill it n went to sleep le...coz cannot c it...then i put aloe first n went to sleep...haha...last night got no bit...lucky i remember i got aloe first...hehe...
oh ya got to go down my office buy somethings...maybe c later i ask wen hui pei me go down??c lo...dunno if she is free??later go call her...sian...also goin to no money le...later buy le tat thing dunno left how mach le...nvm...goin to get pay le...maybe monday get pay??hehe...then got money le..goin to buy bra...click infront de...hehe...looking for tat very long le...hehe...get my pay can buy le...hehe...
tmr may be stay at home lo...if he nv come out...dunno y this country really stupid...hai...hope i can get out of here!!!
Sunday, May 04, 2008
