today in the morning went to meet wen hui wanted to go swimming at tm there...but we haven eat so went to ws take money n went to eat mac...then from there we finnish our breakfast le coz was too full to swimming...then wen hui got some projects to do..so we sit down there she do her project i c her do lo...then after tat is 11+ to 12 le then she wanted to drink bubble tea so went to buy n go...then she say let go to her dad de club n swim ba...lol..then i was like huh??ok lo...then her mum called her...she told her mum tat we goin to their dad club there to swim...then her mum say if dun have member cannot go in u know??then i was like so scare tat if we go there then cannot go in how??then wen hui keep saying can de la can de la...we r lucky right?then i say ya...so ok lo..go there c lo...lucky can go in lo...lol..if not go there wasted...then we went to the cold water first...so cold til my leg numb...then very pain...then went to the hot water...very hot dun dare to go in...there was 2 uncle there...one uncle in the hot wan...wa he can stay in so long sia...then the other one he went in the hot one first then went in to the cold wan...wa...they so power sia...we can even go in wif our body lo...lol...then we went to the swimming pool...swim for few round then went to another place...got bubble de...then after tat went to a room very hot de...lol...go in awhile only..coz got to rush to do wen hui teeth...at 1.50...but after we bath out she was late le...then we quickly walk to take train down to outram pack...she doin her teeth there...while she doin her teeth i went to window shopping myself around there...so bored lo...nth mach there lo...wait for her dunno how long...then she came le...then we train down to my office..went to buy foundation tat i wanted...she bought for me for xmas de..coz we have get each other xmas prasent yet...she wan de things also haven buy for her yet...i wan de thing she buy for me le just now...then coz only 39+ ma...so i buy aloe vera jelly...coz my ex wan to buy from m...so i buy it first...so tat it will be $50+ le...then after tat went to centrey beside my office to eat...i got not enough money le...this month de pay haven get...then she borrow me some money to buy food to eat lo...coz really hungry le...i ate lasa...ok lo...nice lo..then wen hui eat chicken rice...she keep giving me her meat n those hard food tat she cannot bite...coz she just do her teeth...very pain...then i give her fishball n some things tat she can bite lo...then after tat went shop around...she bought her new year shoes...then after tat went to her house listen her play piano...c her teacher how to teach her...lol...then after tat went home le...so tired lo...nv eat my dinner..also dun feel like eating...dunno y...maybe too tired ba...
ya ytd moning i dream of something...dream tat i was in a live then suddenly the live went down like very fast like tat then my heart was like goin to drop out like tat...i can feel it...is like the feeling when i from up there coming down very fast...i told wen hui about it...then she say it bcoz i was worry about somethings...also dunno wat...wat do i worry of?dunno...ok la...end here le...very tired wan to sleep...good night!!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
just now went to c my cousin friendster profile...look like she also just boke up wif her bf not long ba..hai...love?y this world will have love?it make ppl hurt!!hate being hurt lo..if this world dun have love then everybody will not be hurt lo...hai...
just now a guy from my sec sch de name jeser..keep askin me lots of question..so fan lo...ask me when i off...i told him i dunno..coz he wanted to meet me out..i dun wanna meet him lo...dun even know him well lo...so funny lo he...
say wat he saw me b4 say wat tat time he saw me he like me le..very funny...say wat he dun dare to talk to me tat time...i nv even c him b4 lo...he from hui hui de class she should know him ba...saw his class photo...he look fat..but cute la...lol...dunno even know him well...he say he from NA de class de...but his msg dunno look like NA de ppl lo...lol...cant really understand his msg lo...lol...dun care him le...he very de fan de lo...even time ask this ask tat...
today was my off day..stay at home whole day...sian de lo...nth to do lo...watch movies n play maple whole day...lucky tmr goin swimming wif wen hui then go office...if not dam bored lo...yup stop here le...hehe..
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
today wake up at 11+..so bored nth to do...dear still at feild camp...cant contact him for 3 or 4 days...i free really bad to him...coz i feel tat i am just using him to forget my ex...but i cant...hai..dunno wat am i doin...really sorry to him...but i will try my best to forget him..dunno y every time i just feel tat he just trying to high something from me...maybe is i think too mach..tat i keep thown my anger on him...i can c tat he is sad...really sorry to him..:_(...he gave me the sk jewel de necklace i accidently break it...sorry for tat too..i am so dum..miss him lots...:_(...
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
went to c my cousin frienster profile...look like she just boke up wif her bf...so many ppl had a bad relationship...hai...love really hurt!!y there is love in this world??y love will hurt ppl so mach??hai...if there is no love then everybody will live happily ba...hai...
today was my off day stay at home whole day..so sian...lucky tmr go swimming wif wen hui...if not very sian lo...ytd n today stay at home...nth to do use com...also sian de lo...
just this guy jeser msn me...asked me if when is my off day c if can meet...i told him i every day got work...no time to meet..he is from my sec sch de ppl...tat time he said he like me...lol..so funny..i dun even know him...somemore nv even talk to him b4...he just say tat he since sec sch saw me he like me le...so funny lo..tat time i look so toot..who will like me sia??lol...c the sec sch de year book...saw him...he look fat...lol..cute la...lol..but he abit wierd..he say he from NA de class...but his msh dun look like NA de ppl lo...lol...his msg i cant really understand lo...lol...
dun care him le...so fan sia he..keep askin me so many question...
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
just wake up not long...wake up at 3+lol..got so many dreams...can remember one dream...a gal dunno from where come back...then she kana snake bit...then she came to me at first i dunno she become snake le...then she was like dunno saying wat...then wanted to bit me...then she say let be snake together...they i was like huh??dun wan...i was like thinking of somethings then she bit me...then i become a snake too..
then at a shopping...goin to eat dinner...then i was lost coz i went to toilet then came back dunno how to walk...then anyhow walk lo..then walk somewhere got alot of ppl...then those ppl like a zombies walking very slow..then i quickly walk out of there..then walk til a place very quiet dunno where am i..then my uncle came...he saw i was lost like tat...then he bring me in...then i was like..lol..the restraunt was like beside me only...then all my cousin was there le..then waiting for food..lol..
after food everyone went out..then i saw some ppl was spiderman, some was like me...some dunno wat le...lol..then i woke up le...coz someone msg me...sian...then went back to sleep again til 3+ then wake up le...still got other dreams but cant really remember...
ytd night was cleaning my room..my floor was like so many hair...some was my some i thin is my mum de lo...coz this morning she came in then when i wake up i saw some hair on the floor again..sian lo...then after i clean up went to do my pendan eyes...put jelly n toner...lol...tat time went back to office for facial revetion a aunt teach me...coz tat time she help me do facial after tat she saw my eye go pendan eye so ask teach me to use jelly n toner be4 i go to sleep...lol...
ok lo...it work...but still got abit la..if not very dark wan..hehe...can teach someone do le..coz he wanted to remove his pendan eyes...then ask me if i got any products for tat??now i got it le..hehe...got sales lo...lol..
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
just came back from work not long...so tired..reach home on com seach for a song lyric...the song from my blog..hehe...this very nice..lol..got one more song i think it nice too from my frien blog xueli...hehe...dunno y i like...hehe...
this few days got a bad dreams...last night i dream tat i was in a bus coming back from malaysia...then everybody have to do injection wif some kind of cans....inside de can some got meat some got kazhua...lol...then i areally do one time le then need to do 2nd time...2nd time i dunno how to poke then i was siting beside my frien xueli...i say i dunno how to poke then bcoz someone just bully her so she very angry so she say she also dunno...then the bus dunno y sudden brake then i slide to the front...lol..slide to a aunt beside..then i ask her to her me poke..then she also dunno how to poke...then i walk to the front saw some guys...saw my ex seb...he was like so happy infront wif his friens...so i ask him to help me poke...n he did...after tat everyone go down the bus...to the building inside got canteen then went there to sit down saw my church ppl..siting there opening the can to eat...eeee...very er xin...all meat...nv cooked wan...they just open n eat...then i also got can ma..then i give them my wan to eat...since they say is nice..then wait til the things finnish go in to my body then i pass to them the can...then they open inside alot of kazhua...eee...the things go inside my body is kazhua...then i thown the can away...dunno y thown bellow my book shelf..then alot of kazhua come out...climb up to my aircon...then my younger bro n my cousin came in i told them there got kazhua there...then they take the spray to spray them...lol...then i woke up le...lol..
to me is a bad dream coz my can inside is kazhua...i am so unlucky lo...choose a kazhua de can...then some more i hate injection lo...haiyo...actually still got some other dream lo but i forget le...too bad...coz i wake up n sleep back alot of time coz really tired ma...hehe...
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
today went to office cant get wat my bf wan...so bought some bbq pork n 2 kuih lapis wif prunes...one for him n one for my family..if not got nth back from there...so buy those n try lo...then went back to ws to meet wen hui for dinner...we ate alot at kfc...buy 2 set of 2ps chicken..n one new thing the prawn stick i think...nv c the name...lol...we bought one extra cheese to go wif those chicken n the prawn stick..ok lo not bad la...the water rise de nicer lo...lol..but for me is nice lo...lol...then he came too...wen hui actually was scare...dunno y...she pai say...then my bf also say he pai say to c her...lol...then i just ask him to come lo...they have chated on facebook le...y not chat face to face??lol...can c wen hui dun really like him lo...lol..also dunno y...maybe is he say her nick is novena lo...coz he saw the video we too...hai...told him not to say her liao lo...now she angry le lo...then after eating wen hui make a move first...then i n him went to ask ppl to donate dunno wat thing for old ppl de...his camp ask him to ask ppl to donate de...so i help him lo..first wen hui help him to donate first..then went up saw the gal who sell bra...i went to her to ask her if she wan to donate for old ppl??$2 only...then she donate...then we went up to find my shop tat gal to ask her to donate...then she donate too...then went up to acrade...he wented to find the aunt he know to donate...but she not in...so i asked the other 2 ppl worin there de to help donate...lol...they did...each one $1...then went down to the malay shop beside my shop de to ask her donate...n she did...lol...dunno y today i so lucky..
after tat went to buy slipper...he wanted to buy to use in camp...went to my shop then he say he dun wan by so good de..ok..then went to swank saw one cheap de...$9.90 then he bought tat lo...after tat went home le...then go on facebook...saw some ppl added me..think they found me from flirtable ba...then on his facebook...saw his one got so many gal...dunno y he ask i jealous ar?then i say no ar...then i dunno lei...maybe is jealous ba...then he down there msging ppl...i saw it was a gal..then i nv say anything...he just read n nv reply...maybe is i there then he dun wanna reply ba...then after he go off i msg him to say just now msg gal hor?then he reply say huh??wat i mean??then dunno y i got angry n say nth...then he called to ask...then i say nt n hang up the phone...then he msg me to say i jealous ar he msg tat gall?then he dun msg lo...then i told him no ar i not angry...dunno wat wrong wif me...
Thursday, January 24, 2008
ytd went to work...boss was there...so sian lo...she was there then i stand down there nth to do lo...got new stock come in then all they pack finnish le...then i only need to key in all the stock...then not mach customer lo...dunno y in front of boss i dun really dare to serve customer...but i got serve la...ytd got no voice to talk...then boss only talk to my shop tat gal dunno y...like tat shop tat gal know everything in the shop...the she only work there when the other gal off ma..got stock or not she know meh??forget it...i goin to quit soon le...after new year i no more working there...so haha...
this fews days got good news..lol...my bf de frien a gal wanna learn facial n sell facial products...hehe...he say he will intro to me tat gal...lol...then next now i know facebook also can find customer...lol...got one guy 30+ year old de...know him from flirtable...lol...he asked me wat i working as i told him facial...he say he wanna do facial...then i give him my no...ask him to contact me when he wan facial...lol...
at facebook knew a god bro from turkey...lol...so fun...chated wif him last night...he so nice...lol...english not really good...i can c he love reading books...his background got so many books...he look like someone maybe he got go on tv b4??lol...dunno...haha...
today got no work so sain...dunno wat to do...maybe later go down office buy somethings ba...ya...tat all for now...
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
ytd was my off day...stay at home in the morning...then afternoon my dear come find me...ytd he book out...then went to xueli house to pass her the bbq pork...then take my pineapple tart too..she make de...hehe...nv try yet...maybe new year then try lo...then after tat went to tm watch movie...dunno wat show...very boring...but ok la the show...after the show went to his house over night lo...
at his house dunno y i started to think of my pass....about me n wendy n zaki n ws family, n me n geraldine, jing wen n berand, ah boon, even my ex seb n his friens, n xueli they all...i feel like my life alot of storys...dunno how to say...alot of sad n happiness...now i was wif my bf...my bro amry frien...i really dunno if this is my true love??
jjust now his mum came in the room in the morning...dunno y this time she came in like no sound...then was like she wake us up...coz his aunt is coming to help them iron their clothes...coz they got no time to iron their so they hire their aunt to iron for them...then his mum was like askin us not to let his anut c us sleeping together if not his mum went to tell her mum...his ah ma...lol...then he was like saying like tat ah ma should be happy can carry grandchild ma...lol...i was like ... then after tat he went out to talk to his mum...then he came in to tell me u got heard wat his mum said??after his amry we marry...then he ask me if i am ok?i was like huh??we just stead noy long u now so fast say marry?we also dunno if we can last long...hai...maybe i still haven give him my full heart ba...trying to forget the pass....hope i will ba...
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
ytd work...from 2.13 start...so funny bully a frien...she at other outlet ytd...then today she coming my shop work alone...lol...coz i n mary off...coz i dun need every day come le ma..coz boss change me go when they need me then i come lo..then i goin to quit after new year...maybe i goin to work at my frien de mum there le...hehe...his mum so funny ytd morning...coz i went to his house over night...then morning wake up his mum told me next time come bring 1 or 2 clothes to change then sleep n must wash our leg be4 goin to bath...so funny...coz his mum very scare wan...she like clean clean de...lol..if not every time she need to wash the bed sheet every time after we sleep...lol..so funny...then she keep nagging her son....lol...then her son very fan...lol...ytd he give me a neckless...he brought it from SK..lol...it look small...but it ok for me...hehe...but his mum so funny..say aiyo...he should have bought a bigger wan ma..like tat so small later drop how?lol...then his mum say if she know he goin to buy tat then she will give his 200 more..lol...then he say 200 can buy wat?lol...then he say give me 1000 la....lol...so cute sia they 2....every time hear them talk like tat...ok la..his mum also ke lian...only got him only son...then dad also keep talking to other gals at night...then heard from him his dad n his mum everyday quarrel...lol...maybe their love has gone le ba...
maybe i should say the true now le ba....he is my bf...dunno y i just dun wanna to say tat i got a bf to all my friens...but some of my frien know le...those who contact me this few days de...some still dunno ba...coz i dun really wanna tell anybody about it first...maybe it too fast le...
this bf i will try to charish him de...but now dunno y i still think of my ex...hai...trying to forget him...since he wan to break wif me wan me t find someone better..ok now i found he happy le ma?he wan me to charish him ok i am trying my best...n i tink i did...coz i nv lie to him...i did told him everythings...sat my ex came to find me so sudden...i didnt know...he waited for me outside my shop...then my bf was there waitin for me too..tat time i was like dunno wat to do...so went to the toilet to call my bf to tell him my ex came...n i told him to go back to my house there we meet at my blk...coz i dun wanna let my ex know i got a bf le...coz it so fast tat i got a bf...i know my bf was sad...coz he wanted to give me a surprise of the neckless...i really sorry to him...then my ex sent me home...actually my ex wanted to go walk walk wif me at dunno where de shop...then i told him i was tired wan to go home sleep...if not go wif him comfirm cannot go home de...so i keep saying i was very tired...wanted to go home...so he sent me home lo...but after he sent me home he still wanted me to give him a good bye kiss...hai...actually i dun wan de...coz if i dun give he comfirm wont let me go...so i kissed him n go off lo...then i went up n called my bf c where was he...n i told him wat i did...he was abit jealous la he told me just now...but he say he trust me...i cant promise him if it will happen again...coz my ex dun even know tat i got bf...but i will tell my ex not to come find me le...coz he every sat will come...tat y now i know le...so next time i must tell him not to come find me...
Monday, January 21, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
just came home not long...sian sick le..headache, havin fru...sian...at work today also sian...no sales...only do 150 today...sian lo...then kana say...also not i wan de ma...coz they havin fair then the customer ask if down stair de price same or not then i dun really know ma...then she told me b4 down stair de got sale so i tell them downstair de is sales de lo...how i know down stair de price same same as there de..she also nv say..then the customer all buy from downstair...hai...nvm...dun care le...i dun feel like workin there le...so sian de lo...now they also wan ppl who can work longer time de...then i cannot ma...so feel like goin my frien mum there work..wait this sat my frien bring me go c his mum work place lo...i think his mum is the boss ba...
ya...today after work went to meet wen hui at her house downstair...i bought bubble tea n dum bing to treat her..coz today i get my pay le..hehe...not mach la...300+ only...ytd nv get my pay coz the sales got not enough...today lucky got enough..i thought today also count..but too bad nv count so count til ytd lo the pay...if not can get more de....sian le lo...
also dunno wan to work unil when...coz my frien de mum say give me 2 weeks to think if i wan or not....bit scare him mum sia...lol..his mum wanna buy bbq pork form me...lol..so good...then is buy 500kg wor...lol...she goin to give away to her work ppl...
came back feel so tired...dunno y...maybe sick so feel tired ba...ok...got to stop here...wanna try if this lap top can watch dvd not..hehe...
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
today went work late abit...coz wait for bus so long...then at work so bored no customer...haven get my my pay yet...so sad...dunno tmr wan to go office buy things first not...scare not enough...go buy bbq pork...my frien de...coz he pass me money le...then i use some le..coz thought today get pay ma...so use thought money first...who know today not enough money money to give me pay...sian lo...tmr then can get pay...
sian le lo...from 28 on til new year cannot get off lo...i still thinking of goin my frien mum place to work lo...coz she say pay will give me til i happy wif it lo...coz now is i still dunno how to do so the pay is low...then if i know well le she will incrase my pay til i happy wif it...lol...i only scare my office tat side must go back...but this job is morning til afternoon 5+ like tat ba...then is like so far..make this sat my frien bring me go c the office ba...then c if i really want to work then...maybe he is scare there very wolu...so dun wanna me to work there ba...but it ok for me ba...coz last time i work at my mum there also very wolu...tat time is cycle...now cannot cycle le...so far...if tat place was at pasir ris more good lo...but too bad...so far...got to get up early...
then just now came back my mum n dad open red wine to drink...they give me some too..lol...i dun really like it...lol...but i still drink finnish...hehe..now got nth to do...so went to use facebook n came to blog...hehe...
this morning i got a bad dream...dream tat i was alone at a shopping centre dunno doin wat...walkin around...was lookin for someone...dunno who...then i was scare...coz tat shopping centre de ppl all so weird de...lol...then i woke up le..lol....
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
just wake up not long...wake up at 3+..lol..dunno y so tired...last night do facial til i fell asleep..coz very tired..then my mum came in off the light then i woke up to wash my face...lol...lucky she came in if not the mask on my face til morning then die le..lol...then the mask very hard to remove lo...wash very long...then after tat very tire le so nv put anything then went to sleep...morning got ppl msg..so wake up to reply then went back to sleep...sleep til 3+ then wake up to bath...coz later 4.30 got work...today get pay...wahaha..lol...tmr go office buy things...my friends wan bbq pork....lol...my friends mum told me tat she wan to buy some too...to give away to her work ppl..she ask me if i wan to work at her place..but it like so far...then if i wan to go office also cannot off...coz is mon to friday de...then some time if got ot is sat also need to go back...then is lke so early to get reach there about 8 like tat must reach there le...then finnish at 5...dunno i wanna work there not lo....coz the pay also good...800 got cpf..but i think my bus fair very ex lo..still thinking if i wanna work there not lo....gtg le..if not late for work...sian...
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Monday, January 14, 2008
12 n 13 went to work early at 1 o'cock...coz they got fair at the first floor...then i must go look after the shop then the other at the first floor lookin after the fair...i was alone all the way til off work..dunno y they need so many ppl down there...thought 2 ppl can le lo??coz i at shop like also cannot alone like tat..coz some shoes i cant find n some i dunno where they put or dun have anymore...then got customer came to conplain shoes i also dunno how...coz the shop is not my...then i also dunno if those shoes still got come not got to ask another gal lo...some time she not there so cannot ask her...got to think of way the settle the customer...some time i think i was so usless...coz i cant do some things myself n make ppl dislike me...hai...i both to be stupid..so also of things also dunno...eng not so good chinese also not so good...i dunno wat am i good in??hai...i really wish tat i am not in this world...y am i in this body n in this world??i can c ppl around me was hard workin n cever then me lo..i was like so dame stupid n useless lo....hai...
wat is love??i really dunno wat is love...n wat is feeling??i really dunno wat is feeling...i only know i am geting tired!!:_(...
Monday, January 14, 2008
Sunday, January 13, 2008
ytd went to office take my sup pin...went up still need to talk intro of me...i was like dunno wat to say then ppl thought i was nervous...lol..actually i am...lol...n dunno wat to say...but i really do my best le...was like so scare i say wrong things...lol...i was like saying my full name out...dunno y....lol...then i say thx to my up line then stop there le..coz i really dunno wat to say...then the person beside me say very well...i was like so pai say...omg...then dun have ppl go up for AM...then so many ppl go up for as...then only 2 ppl go up for sup...acctually got one more which is my lup line son...coz he only apply for as then nv apply for sup so he nv get...lol...he was like so lucky nv go up to talk...lol...then after tat went to eat wif them...ate hoikken mee n dunno wat...lol...was like so full...lol...my up line keep askin us to eat...lol...then they have eaten le...then i haven...the up line ask me to eat...lol...then after tat they sent me home...lol...they first sent their son de gf home first then sent me home...lol...they like so scare we will lost like tat then ask their son to sent us up...lol...then on the way up the son ask me i just now up there very nervous ar?then i say ya...then i ask him he next month go get ar?then he say no...he dun wan...lol...he scare he will become dunno how to talk then so pai say...lol...next month they dun have sucess day...coz new year..then they got dunno wat thing forget le...is to celeb new year de...on 16 feb...then next sat or sun maybe goin to my up line home...she wanna talk to me...sian lo...still cant find someone to learn massage wif me...reach home bath then went to bed le..was like so tired...lol..later still got work at 2 so sian n tired...coz today they got fair...
this morning i got a bad dream..dunno y dream tat i was late for work...then was like the place was change...then boss was there...then she was like not happy at me...coz everytime they need me then i cannot go...then everytime go late...also dunno y...then they got open bbq...i was there too...then i dunno then i went out to eat lurch...then saw a frien so i eat wif my frien outside...then came back so long..then boss n my shop tat gal was like not happy..then i told them i eat outside then come back..then they say i can buy back n eat de ma...then they behind got buy bk to eat...coz i walk to behind n c..then i was like forget to buy drink then from the back door go buy drink...then dunno y i walk so long then fond a water cooler...then went to drink some water then walk back to shop..the place like so market place...then walk to the other side dunno y my shop is sell food wan is like a resturant then i was at the wrong side standing...like stupid lo...then i think there de ppl dun like me also...coz i every time late ba..then i walk be to other side...then wake up le...wake up help my mum do her eye brown...lol...do til like so ugly...lol...then now bloging..hehe...tat all ba...
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
ytd nth mach as per normal go work at 4.30...at work one guy from hang ten so funny...keep lookin at my shop...then my shop tat gal told me tat guy tat morning open the shop then she also open then tat guy was like keep lookin in to c who open he shop wan...so funny...then every time i c him like lookin at me like tat...coz every time i c him then i look at me then know i was lookin at him he quickly look away...so funny...then ytd hang ten a gal know tat guy wan to know me...then she ask me to go over her there she told me tat, tat guy keep askin for my name n he say he wan to know me...so funny...then she ask i dun mind right?then i say no..then she thought i sayin dun wan...so funny...then coz my shop got customer then i quickly run back my shop...then my shop tat gal was so angry at her son...coz her son borrow his cousin their hp tat she brought for them not long...then their cousin goin to camp at sch wif tat hp...then her 2 son nv tell their mum ma...so she was like so angry at them...she scolding them on the phone..then got customer come her also let her scare off...i also abit scare of her..coz she was like shouting on the phone..then i was like askin her to cool down...lol...i know how she feel la...coz she really scare they make lost her phone ma...n it new wan then the card also wif them...so she scare lo...then she scold her son til they cry...then she say she go back wan to cane them...lol...then i got nth to say...coz they really did wrong le ma...lol...
then walk home normally lo...listen songs on my mp3...long time nv use my mp3 le...reach home watch tv awhile coz the 9 o'cock show nv finnish...then i was on the phone wif someone so was like so funny...coz i was like watching tv n askin the phone ppl to stup up...coz the phone ppl was like talking to me then i was like concentrate on the tv...lol...
then get back to the phone then i ask y keep quiet then the phone ppl say coz i ask him to stup up ma...lol...then i think wat i said to him just now...lol...then i know i did ask him to stup up...so funny...then so on n so for...lol...
then cant sleep so went to view all my pics n videos n my phone...then fell asleep...lol...wake up at 10+...i think this morning around 5+ i wake up b4 coz someone msg me so early...then saw my mum coming in to off aircon...then on my fan...then i think i was very bad to her...coz every time she nv on my fan i will scold her...coz very hot ma...then everytime got to wake up to on myslef the cannot go back sleep le...then she also nv open the window then like no oxygen later die how?lol...
then went back to sleep le...wake up this morning do my nail polish...coz came off so redo it lo..but dunno y keep accidently make until it...then redo it again nagain...til i get angry...then i say to myself if i make until it again i wont do it again...then finally can le...haha...then i was hungry then i just do my nail polish so i asked my bro to cook noodle to eat...then he keep saying wat i lazy say la...wat fuck la...dun like him lo...everytime like to make ppl scold him n bit him wan lo...then he very wat lo...ask him not to stup up he keep sayin n sayin...i feel like stepping him lo...in the morning make me feel so angry...dun feel like staying in this house lo...tat y i hate to come home...
Friday, January 11, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
ytd went work at 4.30...so sian all the way til off work...coz not mach ppl...feel like sleeping...then after work go home...but it was raining very heavily...then lucky my shop tat gal she got umbrella she nv come work ytd so i called her to ask her if can borrow her umbrella home...then rain was so heave tat flood...the my pant was so wet lo...the on the road my slipper came off...omg...the went back to take...i feel like taking off my slipper to walk lo...coz like so many cars then everybody was running lo...then i still went back to take my slipper...then everyone was like looking at me...so pai say lo...my slipper came off 2 time...then in the town park was like no ppl walk like tat...like so dark...then was like so flood...then reach home told them flooded...then my pant also wet...then eat my dinner n went to bath...got no money to eat outside le...so came home to have my dinner...at work tat gal so good wanted to treat me eat..then i was like dun wan her to treat coz was like so pai say...then dun wan her to treat...then she wanted to buy food ask me wan to drink anything?then i ask her help me buy mango milk ice for me...coz i dun feel like eating anything...then wanted to pass her my card then she say dun need she can pay...then i anything lo..coz i also dunno how mach i left in my card...went home asked my mum to give me money..then she was like keep sayin i work work work then so fast no more money...then say wat dun work tat job go find other job la..i was like dunno wat to say..so i asked her to shut up...dunno y i dun like ppl to nap at me...like i am 18 le y she still nap n nap n nap...if nv go home she also ask y nv come back?like i am still a kid like tat...then i told her off...nv come back then nv come back la...ask so mach for wat??then she nv reply...i know i was very bad to say tat...coz i just dun like them to care so mach...wat for she care but dun every care about if i got money to eat not??it like so wat they know i am a life?but dunno i got nth to eat...they dun even care...n i dun need them to care of where i am...ya i do wan freedom...i really hope tat i could get out of this world!i really hate to be myself!!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
this was the videos tat we too ytd...so funny...
the first video she dunno i was taking video in the first place then after tat i pause n told her tat...then she say ok...then continue it...she was sayin of where we were n wat we did n the weather...lol...then the 2nd video..i all the way dunno she was taking video..so funny...then was like kana bluff like tat...
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
today went out wif wen hui...i was late today...woke up late...then meet her at tm train there...then we go novena walk walk...eat kfc there...then went for some shopping...actually me dun wanna buy anything de...but dunno y saw something i like then buy lo..sian...bought 3 earring for $5...then went shop for clothes wen hui wanted to buy...but she cant find anything she like so she nv buy anything...then she bought a ice cream then find a place to sit...then too some pics n videos too...then when goin back she saw some cute things tat we like so bought it i bought it too...lol..use money again...now dunno left how mach...no more note le..sian...then went back to tm..coz she goin back to sch..so i got no where to go..called my cousin she asked me i n *him* break le ar?coz she saw his blog...then ask me got c his blog too...i was like thinking wat did he write today n ytd?then i say ya...she sounded like so happy like tat...dunno wat she thinking..then i ask her y then she say nth...then i think maybe she just dun like me wif *him* ba...so i asked her where is she??thought of meeting her...but she wif her friens so nv go meet her lo..then i think of *him* again...was like suddenly become so moody...then called xueli ask her where is she...ask her if she wan to meet me not...then i ask her wat time finnish sch she say 5 like tat..then i say huh...so late...then i ask her if *he* was there?then she say she n *him not same course...then i thought wat...then was like no where to go...so msg *him* ask *him where were *he*??then i thought *he* wont reply...but *he* did...but is sent wrong ppl de...hai...*he* say wat at home waiting for u!lol...then i was like huh??then i called *him*..*he* cup my call n call me back...then ask me wat?then i ask *him* where is *he*??then *he* say *he* was at home..then i ask *him* wan to meet not?*he* say *he* just reach home only..dun wan to go out...then i ask *him* wan me go find *him*?*he* say dun need la...then i got nth to say so ok lo...then put down the phone le...then *he* msg me say just now sent wrong coz my msg just came in...then i was like think who was tat *he* msging??isit a gal?*he* goin to meet a gal at *his* house??or goin out to meet her??hai...dunno how to say my feeling now...feel like crying...then went home...nth to do..listen this song (baby i am sorry) all the way i reach home...then now still listening...everytime i listen this song i think of *him*...:_(...miss *him* lots!!
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Monday, January 7, 2008
ytd went work at 2 pm...went early coz got nth to do...at home walk so many round then think of him feel like crying...but my mum n bro at home so try not to cry...then went to work...go in early also no extra pay...nvm...then wait for my cousin come take the clothes tat i seldom wear...was like so haven n ugly...coz my mum ask me take tat bag go give her...the bag like so ugly lo...then bring to work...then my work partner thought i run away from home bring one big bag..lol...then i say no la...is give my cousin de...then my cousin come n take...lol she say so ugly lo she dun dare to take...lol...then she ask to put in a plastic bag then give her...then ok lo...then tat time got one customer came to complan about the shoe one side hight one side low...dunno y lo..maybe is the ppl make the shoes not blance...then we kana..then i keep quite lo...then my shop tat gal go say her...coz we c the sole already rub until very wat le...so dun look like wear one time only...but the customer say is wear one time only...then i also got nth to say...then in the end we change for tat customer lo...then the customer say she wont come again...then my shop tat gal say dun come dun come lo..we not only have tat customer...then i nth to say...coz she not alway work at my shop de ma...then after work my ex came to find me...dunno y so sudden...coz be4 i off work he asked me if i free not then i say no...very tired wanted to go home sleep...then he say ok nvm...then dunno y suddenly after work saw him waitin for me outside...then i was like so shot...then i ask him y he come??then he say coz i say i very tired ma...so he wan sent me home after work...then i really was tired...eye very pian...head also...then i ask him y today so free can come fetch me go home?then he say coz today no ppl pei him go watch movie ma...he say all his friens all watch finnish tat show le...then i say i pei him go watch lo...coz i feel very bad ma if i dun pei him watch then he come fetch me go home...then we went to centry watch tat show lo...then after show i was very very tired...then he sent me home lo...
then last night dream about *him* dream tat *he* n *his* friens goin to interview at my up line work place then i was there too...then dunno y *his* things wif me...*his* sun gress n *his* hp...then was like all white in colour...then i wanted to return *him* his things then *he* ask me to help *him* keep first...then was like i got nth to do then go c his phone...*he* still keep my pics...i was like so happy...then waited for *him* to finnish interviewing...then i woke up le...i hope tat dream will come true!!!
ytd saw *his* blog *he* start *his* piano lesson ytd...saw wat *he* say *he* goin to meet someone be4 *he* go lesson...tat someone maybe it a gal ba...after i read i feel so sad...*he* goin to meet someone...i was thinking tat someone is who??everytime i think of tat ytd n today i went crazy....really dunno wat to do!!
Monday, January 07, 2008
Sunday, January 6, 2008
ytd went to work sian lo..come tat thing then stomach very pain..then also dunno y not really hungry...only buy one packet of fries to eat then after tat nv eat le..then after work knew my family wont left any food de..then but chicken from mac the go home eat..reach home c comfirm got nth to eat...coz at work i called my mum...she say got nagget come back eat...then i say to her later i go back comfirm dun have wan lo...c i say it right lo...my stupid bro go eat it up lo...then lucky i got my chicken if not nth to eat le...was like feel so hungry lo..then i scolded my bro...ask him if today he still eat up my food i will hit him...wth!!if i really nv buy any food then nth to eat le lo..then after eatin went to bath...
then msg him again...he reply...it like so dame hurt lo of wat he said...wat am i to him?someone who wanted a guy so mach?i hate him of sayin tat lo...but after all dunno y i just hate him for awhile...ytd night was crying so painfully n listening to the song (bady i am sorry)...really cant stop crying...it was like wat did i did to him tat he must say something to hurt me so deeply...ya i did lie to him but i did tell him the true lo...but i nv did anything to hurt him be4 lo...y must him do this to me??i feel like goin to die lo..so wat i went to meet a guy after we break not long??is tat wrong of goin out wif a guy?it was like after i help tat guy done his facial then came out to eat...then was like so early so went to play some games lo til i go to work lo...wat about him??he did went out a gal too lo..he can went out wif gal on tat day tat we break out...ya tat gal hv a bf n it his best frien gf...so wat...she also a gal ok...n tat day new year count down still can play wif them...so happily...wat bout me???stand down there doin nth just c them have fun...my heart was like so pain lo...take pic he keep pushin his friens toward me...wat is this huh??stand beside me will die isit??after tat count down reach home i was like thinkin of him lo...was so sad of it lo...from tat day i keep having nightmare...dunno y...last night also....hai...really dunno wat to do now!!!:*(...
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Saturday, January 5, 2008
ytd night so bored...take out those clothers tat i seldom n nv wear de to give my cousin...coz my cupboard also full le...need to pack out...lol...after tat i was bored so too some pic of me...n one i too wif my new year clothe tat i bought ytd...
just changed the song...it like how i really feel...cant really do anything now...still love him lots lots!!wanna patch wif him but he dun wan...hai...goin crazy this few days cant stop thinking of him..
dunno y this few days keep buyin things to make me happy so i wont think of anything...but after buyin le nth to do then started to think of him again...hai...now keep buyin n buyin til no money...think left $30+ le...keep buyin n buyin also dunno how mach i left...then go c my bank wah left so little...dunno can tahan how long sia...maybe eat less ba...dunno y ytd like keep drinking water then only eat noodle in the morning tthe go work buy fries to eat...eat abit then dun wan le...dunno y suddenly like feel like eatin then dun feel like eatin like tat...after tat wen hui came to find me...ask me to follow her go buy food...then my shop tat gal like not happy tat i keep goin out wif my frien..so wat lo...she can say later boss c i wif my friend how?then wat about her?keep goin to other ppl shop talk so long...like half n hours then come back...then sometime go toilet then come back so long...dunno where she go lo...then if boss come c how?only know how to say me then she also like tat...tat time i bought a packet of sweet she say y alway buy this rubbish n eat?then she lei?say le still eat...eat until so happy like tat...then down there keep sayin...dunno wat wrong wif her lo...dun really like her lo...feel like quiting tat job lo...but my other side de job need find customer then can quit this job lo...sian...then some more my shop tat gal keep look down on me lo...so wat she know wat my company is...she dun wan to do then dun say mach la...keep sayin n sayin...i know she not happy tat i keep goin office then cannot go work la...but it not i wan de ma...now i also nv go office liao lo...monday dunno got off not lo...then wed comfirm go back work le lo...then from 11 to 17 they got fair wan me work full...but 11 i got to go down office ma...then i say i morning can come in she still say so mach...say wat they dun wan morning wan coz she need to go down set fair...dunno wat she talkin lo...boss got so many ppl dunno how to ask them meh...stupid lo...wat open alot of fair...dunno true not lo...sometime i find her really very wat lo...keep look down on ppl...she wat buy product wan member price wat sia...she not member then wan member price...later i kana then she know lo...say wat she buy from her frien liao...dun c any difft lo...i know she lie to me tat y i dun ask so mach...i know she the ppl dunno get pai say wan lo...if i say her she will get more unhappy wif me wan lo...so i keep quiet...work like really kana use by her lo...she wan eat this ask me go buy wat tat ask me go buy...wat sia...thn change money also ask me go change...she dunno how to go change herself ar...so wat she full time i part time?full time then can bully part time la...i down there longer lei...they need me becoz they dunno how to use the cashier lo...now they goin to change cashier then i down there also extra lo...acturlly i really feel i am extra there lo...they dun really need me there lo...coz i every time no time coz need go office..really dun feel like workin at the shoe shop le lo...so fan!!!!dunno wat to do...
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Friday, January 4, 2008
trying out all my new year clothes last night...
black green dress n a light blue neckless
all blue got a pink ribbon on my clothe n a blue neckless
a hang ten gey top wif a white short which i bought from bugis n a neckless
last night cant sleep...so chated wif my ex zaki...we chated about him...hai...i told him about wat *he* said of a vase ones it broker cant be fixed back..if it can the scar will still be there...then zaki said...*he* was wrong about it...no matter wat if *he* really love me *he* will try to forgive n forget...ya the scar will still be there but it will make us stronger...i told him i lie to *him* alots...then he said relationship comfirm have lies between wan...n he asked me do *he* lie to me be4?then i think maybe got maybe dun have...then he say last time he did lie to me n i did lie to him be4...he say relationship must have trust, love n one more thing i forget wat he said...if there is no trust in it, it wont last long...i can feel tat *he* dun really trust me...i did told my ex about i went out wif a guy tat is my bro frien to pasir ris park late at night just to help him make up n wait him change his colthes into a gal...i asked him is it wrong to do tat?he said no...coz as long as i tell *him* n not from other ppl it not wrong...i say *he* say *he* got no pove tat he nv c it...n he say *he* should trust me more...he say *he* was lucky tat i did tell *him* not like last time i nv even tell him anything...lie le just dun say anything n he found out himself...now 3 of my ex say *he* was lucky to hv me...coz one is tat i last time dun really like to go his house then *he* i keep goin to *his* house...one more were the same...then the other one say *he* was lucky coz i lie to *him* n i did say it out n i went out wif other guys also got tell *him* about it...
just now be4 i blog went to view his blog saw him say tat her maybe not me ba...if he do really love me he wont leave me n say those hurtfull words to me...
this fews day dunno y keep having nightmare...ytd is of a gal goin crazy today is a professior got a men head then wanted to do expreience wif it...then he put then men head in a yellow water..inside got lot of sand then he ask me to help him take out the sand...then i one by one take out...in a bowl...then take out le...wanted to wash the bowl then went to my mum room de toilet close the door wif out locking it...then suddenly my phone ring...then i pick up...the person like telling me to be carfull coz tat professior will take my head too..then i was very scare...then suddenly the professior was outside the toilet door dunno wat he shouting...i was so scare then i saw the door was not lock...then i pess the lock...the lock like cannot lock like tat...so i scare he will band in...then i was like sitin at the toilet bowl n pessing the lock...then he suddenly stop...then i saw him sweeping the floor outside the toilet...then my hp ring again...i quickly pick up...the person ask me where am i...trying to get me out of the place...then i say in a room the professior room...then he say go to the computer...then i saw so many computer like all on the wall...then my phone ring somebody called me...then i wake up le...after tat i call a frien told him about my dream...he say i think too mach le...ask me try not to think of *him*...so my nightmare will go alway...hai...but how?how can i forget him?got a bad new year day this year...celeb wif my company...c him like so happy wif his friens i was like so sad...dunno wat to do...go home still think of him...i am goin crazy le la!!!y end up like this???i hate it!!!feel like goin to die!!!
Friday, January 04, 2008
Thursday, January 3, 2008
i bought it coz i saw so many ppl eatin it so wanted to try
ate this on my way home
this few days keep thinkin of him...ytd at work dunno y got customer no customer i will stard bland then was like thinking of him...ytd he came to pass me things when i was suffing a customer then he just walk in n out wif out sayin anything...then my shop tat gal say he like very wat dunno how to say anything then go...then she say break le also friends ma...y must be like tat?hai...then i nth to say...maybe he hate me ba...so nv say anything n walk out...then after work reach home use com...c his blog then went to bed n cry til i fell asleep... woke up at 5+ got a bad dream...dream tat a gal got some kind of sickness then in a house she was alone...then she keep hearing things like there it ok? there is ok?there it ok? getin louder n louder....so scary...til she reply it...she said it ok it ok...then it stop...n continues everyday...she got stress up n too a knife wanted to kill the sound...then cant...then she got a botter on her hand dunno wat was tat...then she hold the knife pointing at herself....i think she wanted to kill herself ba...then i woke up le...was so scared tat i will become like her...;_(...woke up n cry for awhile then tryin to sleep back...
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Welcome!
Hey friends Thank for viewing!!
Love you all very mach!!Mauck!:D
just changed the song...it like how i really feel...cant really do anything now...still love him lots lots!!wanna patch wif him but he dun wan...hai...goin crazy this few days cant stop thinking of him...jpg)
black green dress n a light blue neckless.jpg)
all blue got a pink ribbon on my clothe n a blue neckless
a hang ten gey top wif a white short which i bought from bugis n a neckless
i bought it coz i saw so many ppl eatin it so wanted to try
ate this on my way home
