Monday, February 4, 2008
today was my last day of work...so went work on time...was thinking about someone at work..dunno y...keep thinking til got customer i also think...then customer ask me for something i huh back..after we break up dunno y i keep goin to his blog to view...til now i still viewing...wanted to know if he got think of me of or wat ever...he did...i was so happy n sad...coz it was him the one who leave me..n wanted me to find someone else...now i did...but dunno y i dun really like him as in now de bf...some time maybe i feel bad so i treated him well...sometime i really dunno y when he tough me i feel er xin n push him alway...not tough me where la...but only my hand i feel er xin le...dunno y i dun like him to tough me..then today from his house take cab goin home he was lke wanted to lie down on me...i push him alway..ask him to sit properly...then he sit properly n fell asleep...can c he is really tired..coz this morning he wake up early to fix his com...coz last night i was really tired so asked him to sleep...then he pei me sleep lo..then morning his alarm ring i heard..then i wake him up to off it...coz so noise i cant sleep...also becoz i dream of something then wake up...dunno wat dream le..forget le...then went back to sleep then he wake up le..then i dream alot...dunno wat dream then wake up coz heard his mum wake up...n came in to off the fan...then heard them talking...then i half sleep half hear them talk...lol..dunno y i will hear ppl talk de...maybe hear them if they r talking about me not lo..hehe...wake up at 10+ i think..then went to eat breakfast at his house downstair...then went home to bath then then go work...tmr maybe goin shopping...asked xueli to go shopping...dunno if she is free not...c tmr her reply lo...maybe will shop for some new year clothes..got some le...but i think got to get 2 more clothes ba..wanted to buy gove too...i think got alot to buy..coz i wanted to change myself..hehe...coz when i am young i really look very toot..dunno y now adays de youngster very know how to da ban...lol...they know how to dress up..maybe is becoz last time dun have now aday de fashion ppl ba..or maybe all the clothes i wear from young not i buy de...all ppl give de ba...only new year then got buy clothes if not other days de clothes is other ppl give de...tat y my clothes look like 20+ de ppl wear de...some from my cousin some from my aunt...sian de lo...alway take clothes from ppl...i free like our house so poor tat ppl have to give us clothes lo...buying clothes all use my money only lo...now from i started work til now...my mum not goin to give me money any more...coz i got work le...but sometime when i got no money if i goin out i will try to ask her to give me money to eat...i know from young i after sch must go home straight if not kana bit...then from tat time i keep lie to my mum tat i got stay back for lesson...then went to my friens house play...play til 6+ to 7 then go home...then got one time i reach home very late i kana bit...my mum can me...then i cry very lound...lol...coz she can my leg..where got lots of meat de...tat y very pain..if she can my hand or other place i wont cry or feel any pain lo...i remember got one time my mum can my bro...older bro...she seldom can him de lo..only me...lucky i clever...keep the can til now she also cannot find it...then she nv can us any more...dunno y i just dun like my mum to nag at me...i will say her back de lo...remember last time at sch primary sch...i was sick..having fever...then alway fell asleep...then my teacher ask a frien to bring me to office to call my mum to bring me home...then my frien ask me to call n say...then i was like dunno how to say...coz if i say tat i was sick to someone i will cry...dunno y...n i cant talk nicely to my mum lo...i talk nicely i also feel like crying...dunno y too...just tat feeling lo...now i think le also feel like crying...then lucky my frien help me to say..ya i miss my primary sch...but i hate last time de me...coz i alway kana bully..even at sec sch i kana bully too...hai...since young i was so unlucky...no friens kana bully til i out of sch...i do miss sch lots...but i dun like it when i have no friens n kana bully all the time...at primary sch kana morless by 2 brothers...one tough my but ont tough my nee there...dunno wat in their mind...then i tat time very stupid wan ma...so nv tell teacher then went to tell a frien say dun stand infront tat guy he will tough ur but de...he tough my everytime...so i think she help me tell the teacher then tat day teacher say dun tough gals ar!!u guy behind...or maybe teacher saw...so from tat day tat guy sdun even dare to tough me le...haha..tat teacher also a guy ma...lol...tat teacher very good to me de...hehe...actually some teachers really good to me...maybe becoz i very quiet ba...but i think some not in tat sch le ba..so old le...but so funny one day i saw this teacher in bus...he can remember me..hehe..but i dunno if he know who am i ba...tat time i also wear not really nice coz goin to swimming ma...hehe...haha...dunno y talk until my young time le...really got lots of happy n sad memory...i really feel tat i am really stupid for wat ever i do lo...hai...hate myself lots!!:_(...
Monday, February 04, 2008
